This sleeping angel is who I live my life for – Little Miss Sleeping Monster 🙂
Ever had that moment where you hit rock bottom? It could be any number of things. For me, however, when it comes to my food addiction, it was this Sunday afternoon.
But it started Saturday night. Saturday night was a friend’s engagement over at The Flying Saucer. The Flying Saucer is a beer house with hundreds of rare and delicious beers on tap. Because I would be driving the majority of the evening, I limited myself to 1 flight (25 oz) and 1 pint of beer to be consumed over a few hours. I also consumed 8 Buffalo wings, bone-in, and some cheese fries topped with chives and bacon bits. Needless to say, when I left The Flying Saucer, I was full. And that’s when the heart palpitations started. For the next hour, I felt light fluttering across my chest. It was noticeable enough for me to wonder if I should go to the ER. I drank water the rest of the night, and I tried to keep my emotions and stress levels in check. I was worried, but this still was not rock bottom.
Father’s Day. Brooklyn’s dad had an issue come up so I took her to eat. Still craving Buffalo wings (why, I don’t know why), we went to Willie’s Ice House where I had an appetizer of fried pickles and mushrooms and Buffalo wings. No beer though. Straight iced tea, unsweet. But as I sat there, playing with Brooklyn, it occurred to me. If I continue to eat these kinds of food, I won’t live to see her 18th birthday. A girl I grew up with died this year of a heart attack. My own mortality is a reality. We all die, but now I have something I must do everything in my power to live for. As delicious as fried pickles are, and oh, how they are delicious, they are no comparison to the joy and love I have for my daughter.
So with that, I must eat healthy. I must find the motivation to break my own addiction. I’m addicted to food. Beer, Buffalo wings, fried pickles, pastas, candy, ice cream…it’s all so delicious. And all so deadly in mass quantities.
So back on the proverbial horse and I will do this. I will. I must!
Rock bottom is the foundation on which I built my life. – JK Rowling