This journey with my weight is difficult. I know the right things to do. I know how to lose weight. But for some reason, I can’t bring myself to do what I need to do, 80% of the time, much less 100% of the time. It’s just hard.
Perhaps the hardest part is not wanting to give up the bad habits to make way for the good ones. Truth be told, I fear I’m an alcoholic. It once started out as having fun in college. Then a way to let loose during the weekends when the week was rough. Now I drink at least 5 times a week. I don’t get white girl wasted. I don’t get drunk. But I drink more than I should.
The problem with drinking is it makes the important things go away. For example, I would love to work out. But I’m too tired in the mornings and once I start drinking, I don’t want to work out! Another problem is I’ll eat more than usual if I drink, and I don’t stick to a healthy diet. Pizza Hut has been called quite a few times!
My goal for this week is to stick to my diet plan, taking each day at a time. I also plan to stay away from the drink for five days.
The best things about today are:
1. My house is clean. Jonathan and I did a full, deep clean, from the ceiling to the baseboard. It’s so nice.
2. I made a plan to get back on track. Writing things down is key!
3. I made a fabulous dinner: Pork tenderloin, mashed potatoes, bacon-wrapped jalapeños, and asparagus. It was delicious!
I’m going to continue to document my journey here. It’s boring but maybe it will keep me accountable!
Leave a little sparkle wherever you go…